11 October 2005
run amok.
weird.. only at around 6 in the morning do i feel i'm fine..i think. it's like a mad frenzy. thoughts rushing through my brain like nobody's business.. unconsciously something hits me and i'm hysterical. and then i start to smile again and be fine.. then bam i'm hysterical again. oh what fun.
one more day down.. how many more do i have go through.
i'm grateful that i have you guys. i've freaked you people out one way or another.. for now bear with me ya. jokes. and me being polite and all that bull.. like since when have i ever been so fucking polite. aha.
and so i've found a passionate singing kaki,
'lets have a celebration by the sea, and get together in peace and harmony'. haha.
a special someone said that the pain will be taken away from me and that a certain
pill will be bought so that i can consume it and stinging memories will be erased. i long for that.. then we can take it and be merry and make cherries (?). i'm taking your word for it. :)
ugh. i hate myself for how i am.
you
were. note the past tense. what's past can't be brought forward to what's present.
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