10 January 2006
blank.
gee.. and what do you know. my mind's a blank.
a certain image keeps popping up in my head. why.. i don't know. it could just be a passing phase. and i'm quite certain it's a phase.
oh.. and don't get me wrong.. because i don't think anyone knows. so yea.
i'm doing the wrong thing. stop trying to fill my mind with such thoughts.
cos by doing so... this is not called dependency. i'm not supposed to have such thoughts.
anyhow, happy birthday to those three that share the same month with me. both occasions were fun. january babies tend to be more fun. jokes. i'm just kidding.
seriously, how twisted can my thinking get? it's like sugar rush.. but then there's an obstacle that falls in front of you and then you go 'what in the world is happening' and then i take a step back and don't move forward. but then i feel like moving forward.. but i can't cos i'm rooted to the ground.
ah gee.. it's impossible to explain. no one will understand.
and now..up down left right centre.. everyone's having their own shit. it's so demoralising really. it hurts to see such things happening.. and then you'll tend to wonder.. what's going on.. what does love mean. it's nothing but just a word. no single person will ever be satisfied with what they have, all they have to do is to accept with what they have now. acceptance. that's what it is. i've always wanted more.. wanted more than what i have, and guess such outcomes don't turn out well.
now let me ask you, do you like to chase or do you like to be the one that is being chased?
Rain, feel it on my finger tipsHear it on my window paneYour love's coming down likeRain, wash away my sorrowTake away my painYour love's coming down like rainoh beautiful release. in this sweet madness oh this glorious sadness.
boy is my mind really warped.
05:37
