17 January 2006
intriguing.
had a very bad nightmare the night before. it was bloody and all. a huge crocodile started ripping people apart. and those that i know. it was a mad dash all around to prevent myself from getting killed. oh, and james blunt was my boyfriend in it. jokes. he's ugly.
i have mixed emotions now. let's see- excitement, sadness, jealousy and boredom.
excitement and sadness go together right now... cos i was excited over something, but then it died down cos of my stupid handphone and i didn't realise my messages were full. and then i start to feel sad cos that something is not there anymore.
jealousy over what i heard. stupid really, but still.. can't help but feel this way. it's selfishness. you want others not to have what you can't have. i'm pretty damn selfish.
boredom cos there's not much to do online now. almost everyone's asleep. or away. or those that are online i don't feel like talking.
these things i don't want to hear so i will be alright and not feel selfish.
anyhow, i plan to start work after i finish my dip. any recommendations? some night job. will probably try out penny blacks. if i bother to try. and if all goes well. but you gotta fucking put on make up. that's such a hassle. maybe i should try wala wala. then everyday i can listen to the songs being played. but the tee shirts are all so big and i doubt they are hiring since i always see the same people.
today's paper went soso.. if i'm lucky i'll just scrape through it. i got another one on friday, and i need to collect the textbook although i don't know how yet. it'd be so much easier if all those i know around me are having exams too. haha.
the chatterbox is back up, but it's weird cos it's right below. hopefully somehow it'll automatically go back to where it was.
i like. cos it's intriguing. but yet, too surreal. from afar. i want to know more about.
i haven't watched a movie in a long time. the last was saw2. i fucking want to watch so many movies. argh.
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