27 February 2006

catch my disease.

k the title is of no relation. haha. the song just started playing on itunes.

had the usual family lunch. surprisingly i woke up without any help. power nuts i say.
and i realise, my father is and will always be a vulgar driver.

(woman driver cuts into our lane)
the father: must be a fucking woman!
the daughter: well, at least she waved thanks.
the son: *giggles. (well, maybe he chuckled. that sounds more manly)
the father thinking quietly: and so my daughter thinks she's funny.

another incident occured but i shan't explain it cos it concerns the skin colour.

the more i look at my bro, the more i think he's good looking. i'm freaking myself out. not that i've never seen him for 21 yrs of my life. and not that i didn't think he was good looking last time. just that he's got the mature look now. last time was spiky mohawk good looking. now it's the 'look at me i'm a man now' good looking. oh no. incest. i shall sign him up for eligible bachelors in 2oo7. hehe.

my bro bought 30 coconuts for the barbeque. we had to walk through the filthy smelly market at tekka. i hope my bro gets coco-invitis. (forgive me).

a long but extraordinary day.

met the motley crew at night.. a jolly moment i'd say. pooled a little and played jenga. haha. pics and video taping happened. funny shit. stopped by the road under some bridge and started snapping away with loud music from the car. visited some freaky old school place, i thought i saw something and i screamed and slowed the car down. i swear. some others thought they saw the same thing also. went to changi and saw ba poks as well. bahaha. i think the photo taking part was the funniest. the coordination shit made me almost pee in my pants.

someone else needs to drive and have a car, so more people can fit la. and we can go cruising togetherr. oh mother, it's the randomness that's scaring me.

someone cursed me i think. i can see visible hair on my arms and legs. i never had visible hair! i'm freaking out. this is bad.

jason mraz is coming to spore, 17th march. and the guest band performing before him is unXpected from wala. any takers? i'm keen.

fact: 'if you keep a goldfish in a dark room, it will eventually turn white'.

07:03

26 February 2006

and the sun has risen.

i'm back with my old habit. sleeping at unearthly hours. oh mother.

twentyfivezerotwo. bahahaha. i hope this number comes out on 4D today. it's like what are the chances in the whole wide world. seriously. i mean singapore ain't that small to bump into certain people. and of all places, i mean it's a dodgy place man. bah, nevermind. i had fun..jokes. wholesome activities like this should be done more often.
next on the list: iceskating. bahaha. my balls.

i say playing board games or something. or like telling ghost stories. or truth or dare. oh let's just relive the childhood days. pepsi cola, whacko, rounders, hopscotch.
well..i'd suggest a picnic at marina while we fly kites.. steamboat, then head to the cheap arcade and strut some para para moves. or daytona. but judging from how my companions sleep and wake.. tt i'm afraid will never happen.

sad how when one ages, you dont see much stuff that can be done. i mean besides clubbing and chilling and r(a) movies and falling in love (chuckle. true what, primary school cannot fall in love what, everyone will tease you that you think getting attached is a disease. waha.).. and the fact that you can sleep later. huh correct right. take for instance, go playground also cannot.. security come..see you oversized..ban you from the place. okay.. my friends get banned la, not me. but still.. it's no fun alone.

spouting nonsense i am yes.

to all the heartbreakers out there: fascinating and intriguing. bahahaha. :)

it's a shame to be,
so euphoric and weak.
- and that, is how i always am.

fact: 'on average, a human being will spend 2 weeks kissing in his/her lifetime'.

sad case i say. think about it. haha.

07:19

15 February 2006

refreshing.

come to think about it, i don't quite recall what i've done for every valentine's day. jokes. shows how insignificant it has been to me. the only one i remember was about 3 years ago.

however, this year's vday was fun. a group of us headed to keong saik road to eat by the roadside. exchanged some gifts. was quite funny. and then it was to the cheap beer place to chill. mr head-banger brought a bottle of peach vodka so we just ordered sprite and sneakily poured the vodka as if we were from AlcoholicsAnonymous.

and i actually put in effort for this year's vday. how so very surprising. proud of myself actually. jokes.

finally brought my butt down to the docs to check up on my face. hopefully in 2months' time it'll be like much better. it's time to sleep early and lead a healty lifestyle. can't stress, can't sleep late, can't eat heaty food.

miss.. you've got the best of both worlds now. but please make a choice k.. before it turns disastrous. hard as it may seem.. but no choice man. whichever, i support.

i love cheapthrills. woohoo.

03:31

04 February 2006

although..

..i may not know you well enough, but well enough to know it hurts and that you're someone special and everyone loves you, please do take care of yourself up there.
..i know for sure you didn't want to let go, the pain's unbearable and we feel.
..it's too sudden, you've awoken those around you that don't appreciate others enough.
[may others be given the strength to move on and see your spirit within]

too many things, too little time. that's what it is.
thoughts ran through my head when i was in a somewhat familiar but cold place, i didn't dare to look others in the eye.. the sadness.. was too overwhelming. what if it were me.. how would others react.. would they even bother.. what would happen.. or what if it was someone who was important to me.. i wouldn't know how to react or what to do. and that.. that is what scares me. to be able to think of such things.
~

the things i do.. sometimes satisfaction comes too easily for me. sometimes, things happen too fast. at the end of the day, do i really want to harbour such thoughts. what am i running away from. or how am i gaining from such.

i crave for the adrenalin rush. the sugar rush. the butterflies in the stomach.
when that fades away.. what comes next?

envy is one of the deadly sins. and i feel it in me.

- i appreciate those who came down that day, your presence means so much. it's times like these where i feel the world ain't so wretched afterall.

when will proper satisfaction from everything settle down.

is it going to be a bad year to start with from the looks of it? prove me wrong, you have to.

i'm not one with many words.. at times. presence is all that matters.

comfortable silence needed.