04 February 2006
although..
..i may not know you well enough, but well enough to know it hurts and that you're someone special and everyone loves you, please do take care of yourself up there.
..i know for sure you didn't want to let go, the pain's unbearable and we feel.
..it's too sudden, you've awoken those around you that don't appreciate others enough.
[may others be given the strength to move on and see your spirit within]
too many things, too little time. that's what it is.
thoughts ran through my head when i was in a somewhat familiar but cold place, i didn't dare to look others in the eye.. the sadness.. was too overwhelming. what if it were me.. how would others react.. would they even bother.. what would happen.. or what if it was someone who was important to me.. i wouldn't know how to react or what to do. and that.. that is what scares me. to be able to think of such things.
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the things i do.. sometimes satisfaction comes too easily for me. sometimes, things happen too fast. at the end of the day, do i really want to harbour such thoughts. what am i running away from. or how am i gaining from such.
i crave for the adrenalin rush. the sugar rush. the butterflies in the stomach.
when that fades away.. what comes next?
envy is one of the deadly sins. and i feel it in me.
- i appreciate those who came down that day, your presence means so much. it's times like these where i feel the world ain't so wretched afterall.
when will proper satisfaction from everything settle down.
is it going to be a bad year to start with from the looks of it? prove me wrong, you have to.
i'm not one with many words.. at times. presence is all that matters.
comfortable silence needed.
06:28
