29 March 2006

teach me.

times like these should be erased. what's happening with me now shouldn't even be happening.

i suddenly feel weak all over. it's a total repeat of itself. it's all coming back. goodness.. i really don't get why. letting my guard down all over again. the only factor missing is that i'm not hysterical.

it's stinging. really stinging. and to further rub it in.. i get nightmares. i've had 2 nightmares within the span of 5 days. it's circling around the same thing. these nightmares are probably trying to hint to me about something.

what the fuck. get a life xiang. get a life. i feel like a loser. sheesh.

how do you rid the sweat, after the body bliss
how do you turn your eyes, from the romantic glare
how do you block the sound of a voice,
you'd know anywhere.
how do you numb your skin, after the warmest touch
how do you slow your blood, after the body rush
how do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again.

oh, you probably won't remember me
it's probably ancient history.

i'm out of vogue, i'm out of touch
i fell too fast, i feel too much
i thought that you might have some advice to give,
on how to be insensitive.

i have just officially let everyone down. i'm sorry.
i give up. i raise the white flag.

i need counselling. at times i don't even feel a need to think about such stuff because i love everything that goes on with me now.
but then shit befalls upon me.

teach me on how satisfaction can come by easily. please.

05:42

23 March 2006

bottle caps.

was just looking around my computer, and there're like snapple bottle caps all over. jokes.
and my table's a mess. i always attempt to clear it, but in a day or so later, it's back to where it looked like.

it's terrible.. i'm forgetting what i have been doing the previous days and what went on.

okay, as you can see.. i'm lazy to blog about anything else but random stuff.

more or less the usual events happened. boogie-ing, mahjonging, slacking, wala-ing, staying up till late-ing.

3 times in a week of boogie-ing once again. bad but good. good but bad. my alcohol intent is way better..woohoo. however, i still turn red easily. which is good..makes me look darker. jokes.

been awhile since i headed down to altivo.. changed a bit. definitely still a nice place to chill and drink and listen to what's being played. they should have some fans though, even though they think they're on top of a hill. i realise that i judge places according to the songs that they play. jokes.

yes, i'm currently on repeat mode for 'once in a lifetime'. it's like one of the best 'let's make out' song.. or like one of the best 'i love you' song. they're 2 versions with different lyrics.. but with the same tune. jokes. the other version has more raunchier lyrics. so i choose the decent one to post up. jokes. and it makes more sense.

Found a part of me
That's a mystery
That will be just once in a lifetime
When the moon is high
Passion never dies
Will you want me for all a lifetime.

-and then now i shall stop.

fact: "the average human eats 8 spiders in his/her lifetime while sleeping".

07:17

09 March 2006

depletion.

lack of updates. i know. boring nuts.

jokes.

for the past few weeks.. riddles and jokes have been asked and said non stop.. my brain cells are more or less depleting.

it's highly interesting.. but yet annoying at the same time. you want to solve it yourself, yet when you're stuck you want to find out the answer. after finding out the answer you'll be like 'fuck.. why didn't i think of it'. gets on my damn nerves.

how do i sum up, too many things have been going on. let's just say that almost everyday is filled with fun stuff to do.

bowling, gopal jokes, annoying riddles, jiak kim, slacking, niaming, mahjonging, ktving, travelling long distances, snapshots, movies, wala, supper.

yes, i'm too lazy to blog.

- a new template will be up. pretty soon :)

i've got a warped mind. or so someone says. tsk.
and then i think to myself again... and eureka! i really do have a warped mind. it's so murky and full of webs that when i try to explain to you what my mind holds, you'll just tell me that i've got a screwed up self. well, now now.. don't come blaming me that it's my fault i am this way. blame my parents. and how i have been brought up. :) but then again, by pushing the blame, i'm as guilty as can be.

goodness me, what in the world am i muttering about.

sometimes, i think i can be an irritating prick. hahaha. guess those who choose to be my friends will have to bear such eccentricities.

if you catch me on a good day, ask me what my mind has in store and let me see if you're the only one in this world that will understand. however, i know what things mean.. it's just... yea.. *shrugs.

:some say a picture is worth a million words, but they forget, a single human voice can convey a million emotions:

i realised, i want to be romanced and i want to romance. hahahahaha. oh motherr. i start thinking of weird stuff at night especially when such sappy songs are being played.

[stuck. caught in the middle. with or without.]
~it's time for the ultimatum, my precious. but i heart. you know i do.

fact: 'a duck's quack cannot echo'.