31 May 2006

forever young.

Let's dance in style, let's dance for a while
Heaven can wait we're only watching the skies
Hoping for the best, but expecting the worst
Are you gonna drop the bomb or not

Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power, but we never say never
Sitting in a sand-pit, life is a short trip
The music's for the sad men.

- of all the sad songs i have, this one gets to me much more than the rest do. imagine the rest of the sad songs i have already make me so damn emo. this one.. whoa. it's like 3 times more emo than i already am. even when it got played in napoleon dynamite i got affected. that is how bad it is. jokes.

went through a 7 episode marathon of the oc. stopped at ep 21.. couldn't take it anymore. all the episodes were too sad. but 21..sigh. i hate it when i see summer upset. i guess it's cos you rarely see her upset that's why. oc's too much for the faint hearted. i can't wait to finish watching the season and heave a sigh of relief and then move on to grey's anatomy and one tree hill and lost.

thank goodness my cough is fine, now my stomach feels funny. i'm just hoping it's cos i wasn't sitting properly so my food didn't get digested well. feels hot and funny.

fact: heart attacks are hereditary (everytime i feel such chest pains i know the years down the road, it'll come).

06:49

27 May 2006

fall at your feet.

i'm awake waiting for work to start. i haven't slept since last afternoon. i know..it's madness. the things i go through. sheesh.

a weird night it has been. everyone suddenly had their own problems. and it all happened in a sequence. it's quite scary.

it's the eyes i tell you. damn hypnotic. hahaha.

beware of evil people. think the lack of sleep is kicking in. i hope i don't fall asleep on my own fruits. i'd rather just stare in silence than make noise. seriously, i'm clueless to what i'm talking about. wahaha.

deepest apologies if my tenses are wrong or i have spelling errors. at this time of the day i may overlook the mistakes.

i like doing things on spontaneity. okay.. i hope selling fruits for the next 3 hrs will go by fast. super fast. i need to crash on my bed.

i'm not drifting. if you look on my part and know and see my point of view, you'll understand. i'd never drift. so please look at it at another angle.

09:54

16 May 2006

stupid oprah.

Gone, she’s gone.
How do you feel about it?
That's what I thought, You're real torn up about it
And I wish you the best, But I could do without it
And I will because you've worn me down
Oh, I will because you've worn me down.

Worn me down like a road
I did anything you told
Worn me down to my knees
I did anything to please
But you can't stop thinking about her
No, you can't stop thinking about her.

And you're wrong, you're wrong
I'm not overreacting
Something is off
Why don't we ever believe ourselves?
And lie
Oh, I, I feel that word for you
And I will because you've worn me down
Oh, I will because you 've worn me down.

She's so pretty
She's so damn right
But I'm so tired of thinking
About her again tonight.

Worn me down like a road.
I did anything you told.

- someone sent this song to me long time ago. and it just slipped my mind. and now i've redownloaded it.. and downloaded loads more. i like remembering things like that. next on the download: luna sea- i for you.

once again, i'm doing what i do best. getting hooked again onto old songs i used to love before and new songs from shows. getting all teary eyed while watching an oprah episode. and then because of that.. i'll start thinking of every single thing. even things that are of no business to me.

"nobody understands. nobody does."- that was the trigger moment for me.

19:42

12 May 2006

i think it's the time of the month.

It's one thing to ask why we break up,
Have you ever wondered why it is we fall in love?
Can you tell me, do you know what it is you're looking for?
Why do we need? Can you tell me why I care?
How is it that we hear that voice that says, 'I want you there'?

In a single moment you might be perfect,
And sit in a window of my life.
But how much, how much more would I yearn to see?
What would I strive to hide, now there will be no compromise?
So take it in your stride, I'll believe you now with a smile.

Look into my eyes,
Ours was no love sacrifice.
For it has helped us to grow.
And I'm sorry, I know just how far I have to go alone.

Thanks, you've been fuel for thought.
Now I'm more lonely than before, but that's okay.
I've just ready-made another fucking love song.

okay, i didn't make a love song. but yea. jokes.

just got to keep remembering what others said. we all go through trials and tribulations, but if we can actually wake up every passing day and live and breathe then there's nothing we cannot go through. our lives didnt stop and pause.

have i got a long way to run.

fact: "chewing gum while cutting onions will prevent you from crying".

05:49

05 May 2006

random me.

decided to make my presence known once again since it's been looking so stale. and since i know britney still drops by here. wahahaha. jokes.

i've picked up a good habit by waking up at an earthly hour even though i've slept late the night before.

been listening to more chinese songs nowadays. and mazzy star and jack johnson. wooo.

alright, i dont really know what to say.. but i hope arsenal doesnt win the champions league. and man united will be in second place. and the sun will coming shining when i'm awake. and two more months two more months (chants), i hope. wahaha.

laughing too much makes me tired. it's like if i can't sleep.. i should just meet my friends.. and laugh really loud, then thank them for making me tired and go back home to sleep.

bana bana bo bana banana fana fo fana fee fie mo mana, bana!

i like sparkly people. and when i mean sparkly i mean sparkly. dont ask me to explain because i mean sparkly people. okay, i'm going kooku.

and i've come to realise i like being protective over people.. not in a bad way. but like.. i like to be the one who is the helping hand.. and the one to be there for them. and to try all sorts and means to get things figured out. what i lack is the size. if not i can pick fights too. woohoo.

okay. i'm done talking rubbish.