30 July 2006
aching. terribly.
every year, i anticipate past vs pres.. only to get kicked out and end up with a full body ache.
my horoscope for today says "you've accomplished a lot. now's the time to sit back and pat yourself on the back".
what in the world have i accomplished man. weird. that's cos i don't remember accomplishing anything. maybe the melb trip is the time to sit back and relax.
early night in for me.. home pretty early for a saturday night. just couldn't take the exhaustion.. and the mood i was in. not a good sight i guess. sorry to those whom i've affected around.. it's just one of those times where i really just cannot take it anymore. but you know i still love you all. and you know that i never.. or rather rarely behave like that. it's probably a once in a blue moon thing.. so forgive me.
being erratic is probably the worst trait i have.. and it deeply affects my lifestyle. it affects me emotionally and physically. the funny thing is.. i inflict it on myself. i always try not to affect those around me. so i suffer silently.. more or less. unless with those random whinings. cos no matter how i pour out my sorrows to those close to me.. it's difficult to really understand how i'm going through i guess. but thanks. really.
"play hard, play fast, play loose and free. play as if there's no tomorrow" - grey.
that'd be tiring.
i'm aching.
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