07 January 2008
no happy ending
Wake up in the morning
Stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen I guess I wish you well
Mmm a little bit of heaven
But a little bit of hell
This is the way that we love
Like its forever
Then live the rest of our life
But not together.
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may the remaining 358 days be splendid for everyone.
i can't sleep. i have no idea why and i know for sure i'm going to regret this so much when i wake.
my stomach's been giving me so much problems i'm worried. i really want to do a full check up but i'm afraid to do so. afraid of what the ooutcome might be.
2007 was a blessing in disguise for me. but towards the end of it, i was skeptical.
with so many passings, i'm not sure what will lie ahead.
auntie mabel, it's been 2 yrs since you have left us. and it's different now for when my birthday comes. that's because you never failed to send birthday cards. i still hold you dear and will forever keep the rings close to my heart. i know you're watching over my dad.
ah zhor, you were the oldest but yet the strongest. i never really understood hokkien whenever you conversed but i always would get one of the cousins to help me. we were never close but you always would remember us.
jac, you were the cousin i admired the most. you still are. i regret not getting closer to you. i failed on my part. chinese new year will never be the same. your strength and courage is what motivates me. your love for everyone around you. you have braved through the darkest hours. and now it's time for you to dance again. the world should really get to know you.
marcus, i may have only seen you a few times, but i know you were the brother that looked over my good friend. you have passed from the passion that made you who you are. and i admire that. please watch over ryan, rachel and your parents.
and also, my condolences go out to the choongs and chias. may the healing period be what we all want it to be.
i know i'm no one to say this, but a loss will be a new gain. somehow and in some way.
enlighten me, 2008.
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